The want is so great but yet your so far away- JD
My name is Bella Sin, In local to Cleveland Heighs Ohio.
I love to write and show pretty things, I find my self writting more about heart break and other things.. but i have an interesting outlook on the world i want to share.
Thank you for reading.
Sometimes i wonder why Fall/Winter are the most dramatic seasons over spring/summer?
Well, I figure people fall off during the fall (get it) and since your going to spend a very cabin fever kind of days in your cold, lonely house. Your mouth just does not stop running. My facebook feed has been nothing but things about other people taking about other people… that are taking or not talking about them and insecurities about who is your friend, your boss or your lover….
That’s about it, I had it… honestly i had..
I have said my fair share of shit in my life, but for jesus sakes some people thrive or just want to have some thing in their life’s to keep them entertained. Every where i look with friends, family, work, burlesque, life anything in general all of them are having issues.
Why can we just not care? not read it? not read in to it? not even act on it?
I have changed and let me tell you, ill get fired up but i keep it to my self and i have learned to just vent to my pillow, chocolates and gossip girl. (that is how i get it out of my system)
so many people are effected … just get on with it and smile and nod and take it and just let it go.. constructive hateful banter that is honestly non of your business.
What ever people think of you is non of yours.. thank you Rupaul wise words.
don’t kill each other .. just move around..
(yeah yeah first one to toss the stone people)
hearing her cry, be powerless… makes me feel like i have abandon her.
Mercy - when I melt in the kiss by the words and the whispers you sing me
Mercy - I’m frail in the kill by submission and will that you bring me
Mercy - when I’m nothing but ego you slap me to let go and sleep free
Now I sleep free…” IAMX
At time your thoughts don’t leave me, Remembering the way you touch my skin with your hands ever so lightly touching me. When i think of your lips kissing mine with such a light teasing intent.
Melting, Out of anger because i don’t want it? I miss you is terrible.. I should not even be thinking of you at all… but it happens to be that when i close my eyes you just happen to come about ever so simply just float in. such a terrible feeling is to want and need of someone. I think i’m scared and not ready for another go at the game, but if you are not playing is it one side.
The idea and thought of you, Makes my skin shiver and my mind wonder why? why you?
Tragic, Sad, Scary, No Ready…
Run away - Why not?
I don’t know you there is still time to commit emotional suicide… or am i to deep already.Your hand touching mine.. your thought coming about and singing my name. Where did you come from..? out of no where in a cold April friday night…
Your smile looking down on me when i said some thing to the lines of product sales, the being corrected by a friend. Flowing about the being a glitter queen, To much…? talking to you all night then kissing you by the pool table.. giggles.. never thought i would hear from you but then you just again out of no where..
Trying to keep this ship a float, Not breathing, Not Coping.
So many thoughts that flood my mind… Keeps me from caring at times and drunk on you… all you .. just you.. nothing but you… All i seem to want is you an i want to lay in the middle of the grass with you and feel the sun of an fall day cover us with warmth..
Why do i have to feel? I wish i was nothing more then a shell… I don’t want to be a corrupted animal.